1st day of summer and Father's Day

Yesterday was the 1st day of summer but it didn't seem like it. It was cloudy, windy and ended up with a cloud burst of rain, thunder and lightening.

This morning it is windy and cloudy, but not to cold so I am going out in awhile to start pruning the lilacs and maybe moving some flowers to a new bed.

Each of the boys did something nice for their dad yesterday. One cooked dinner for him on Saturday night. One gave him a gift certificate and one gave him mixed nuts and socks! Another called long distance to tell him what a great dad he is. I took him for taco's and gave him an antique bi-plane to look at, not fly!!

He always has been a great father to his boys. He was there for every sporting event, play, trouble and sorrow, or exciting fun event. He was there to hear problems, offer advice (or keep his mouth shut) when needed. He took us camping, went on road (adventure) trips, karate-baseball-football tournaments no matter where they were.

He was always patient, understanding and never ever violent. Maybe a tiny bit threatening sometimes( scare the heck out of them kind), but always ended up loving and kind.

Yes, maybe summer is finally on its way and yes Gary is a good dad and now he is a terrific grandpa too!

Better Today

I am doing better now. All my life I have just periodically "hit the wall" and have to take a day or two to re-coop, re-affirm, that life is worth living and that my body can do stuff, even if I don't think it can.
Weather affects me a great deal, all white or gray skies for days on end will do me in faster than anything. I am a sun worshipper and feel 100% better when the weather is nice and I can be outside. Guess that is a leftover from growing up in California.
I also have to take meds for depression and if I run out or think I can do without them, then I am in trouble fairly fast. It only takes as long as for the meds to get out of my system for me to go down hill fast.
Depression is a vicious circle. You feel bad about stuff, you feel guilty for feeling bad because you have so much, and then you get more depressed. All it takes is someone telling you to get over it and the spiral is faster and deeper. Those that claim that faith alone will help have never suffered from real depression because I have great faith and still have times when depression overwhelms me. God didn't put doctors on earth for nothing!!
I have a great husband that has learned to just let me have my down days and not say anything and he has the patience to let me work through it all.
Today it is cloudy and windy and cold again, but I will try to stay busy and get outside for alittle while anyway and keep on, keeping on.
Thanks for the supportive comments, I needed them.